possible tattoos.

in christ alone

here in the power of christ i stand

here in the death of christ i live

no fear

never alone

for you are with me

amazing grace

atonement

faith

the hour i first believed

thoughts????

any add ons????

how is it that one man

could say so little

that means so much.

this is my father's world,

and to my listening ears,

all nature sings,

and round me rings,

the music of the spheres.

this is my father's world,

i rest me in the thought,

of rocks and trees,

of skies and seas,

his hand the wonders wrought.

this is my father's world,

the birds their carols raise,

the morning light,

the lily white,

declare their maker's praise.

this is my father's world,

he shines in all thats fair,

in the rustling grass,

i hear him pass,

he speaks to me everywhere.

this is my father's world,

o let me ne'er forget,

that though the wrong

seems often so strong,

God is the ruler yet.

this is my father's world,

why should my heart be sad?

the lord is king,

let the heavens ring,

God reigns,

let the earth be glad.

a festival never to be forgotten.

groovin the moo;

first festival.

can't wait :)

thank you thank you thank you kathryn.

jessica ruth rose meacham.

this girl has no idea just how much she means to me.
for a few months there we had our weekly hangouts.
these would take place on a tuesday night at cronulla gloria jeans.
i miss it.
i have had many immture struggles, but struggles none the less,
and this girl was there to give me advice.
she told me the honest truth and knew that i could take it.
i still keep her words in the back of my mind,
and even though she doesn't know it she's still keeping me accountable.
it took me a while to get there but i can now say that i've left my mistakes behind, and intend on moving forward with god and my friends as my guidence and strength.
i wish to go back to the days of hot chocolates and banana bread.
and words never to be forgotten.
she is an inspiration in my walk with god and i thank her for her honesty
and faith that i would get there.


i love you jessica meacham.

breaking point.

what do you do when you find yourself stuck.
stuck in a place, well you don't really know where it is.
a place where you thought you'd finally found yourself.
i mean to an extent you did.
but now the things you thought were never gonna change,
those things that you had figured out from the start,
they're the things that are suddenly so cloudy, so uncertain.
you tell someone that you love, something you think they should hear,
and they don't want to hear it,
they say you're losing them,
and you can feel it, you can feel the distance growing,
and all of a sudden, everything crumbles,
all the strength you had built and stored up, gone in a heart beat.
you feel like all the things that mean so much to you are just out of reach,
or like you had a hold of them,
but as they crumbled they just slipped through your fingers,
and now there's nothing solid to hold onto.
you can't do a thing about it.
and you start thinking whether you're meant to hold on.
maybe its time to let go,
maybe it couldn't get any better than it had so it's time to let go.
but you can't let go, it hurts too much.
or maybe you're meant to fight,
but you don't have the strength to fight anymore,
you've worn yourself down so much trying to be there for everyone else,
that you have no energy left,
all you want to do is collapse,
let God carry you.
you're at the point where all you can do is cry,
but there's no one to cry to.
just God, and just this one time you wish his arms were material,
so that just this once you could feel his embrace, and hug him back,
and just let go of everything and rest.
cause you need rest.

inner workings of a complex mind.

i wrote this a few years ago but it's amazing how some things can apply no matter where you are in life and no matter what struggles you've faced.

'Okay so all my life I've know God. I've known who he is and what he's done, and I've always believed it. But how can you suddenly wake up everyday feeling like no matter how hard you try, nothing changes, you still can't seem to live your life according to his word. I mean you try, but everything you do and every instense spiritual moment seems to fade away, and it's like all those extraordinary significant moments become normal everyday moments. That feeling of deep connection with God you had throughout your childhood becomes a blur. What do you do when you become so used to that blur that you stop noticing God, you slowly stop journaling and you start focusing on other things. You feel so distant from god that you feel like your life has no meaning, and you feel your heart slowly breaking. When this happens, what are you meant to do, do you ignore it, continue following down that same path because you feels so lost, so off track that you think it's impossible to find that right path again, or do you fight, cut down every branch in your way until you find that path again, that path that leads to God, but this time when you get there you're going to hold on for dear life. You're not going to be led off track by things of this world, because the things of this world can't offer you what God can. When you cry, he cries with you, when you have no strength and feel like you can't go on, he carries you til you're ready. And when you feel like you're all alone, he grabs hold of you and whisers "I'm here". He fights for you, because he believe you're worth the fight. Now will you fight for him. He is worth the fight. I will fight!'